Gimme Some Love

10:24pm: Hellerrrrrrr.....
Holy Crap. How long has it been? Literally 2 years. That's insane. So much has happened in the last 2 years.

To update you on current topics that have changed in the past 2 years:

   * Graduated college

   * Got a job at Orkin Pest Control 

   * Steven & I broke up

   * Terri Osborne is my BESTEST friend

   * I now date Jeremy Dunlap
 
   * I want to move to Cincinnati


...............the short version has ended. To know "the rest of the story" please continue.





    I graduated college in May, 2006. Made it in 4 years with a Bachelor's Degree in Business Administration/Marketing.
Seemed like a safe route. Little did I know that Marketing in this state=sales jobs. 
I decided not to persue higher education after graduating. I felt like I needed a break, and it seemed to me that in my job hunt I discovered that jobs that interest me were not requiring a master's degree, only a bachelor's degree and some experience. Fair enough...so I decided to start working on the "experience" part of the equation.
    Needless to say, I went for the first job that made dollar signs ring in my eyeballs.
    I learned REAL quick that money cant buy happiness.
But that was a year and 2 months ago and I'm still HERE. Don't get me wrong I have looked to my other options, but there are very little options in this area. Unless I will settle for another sales job. Hell to the NO.
    I'll skip a few topics and lead into...for this reason I want to move to Cincinnati. I know, random city, huh? Well I accidentally, while applying to jobs in Charleston, ended up being in Cincinnati...and wouldn't you know, I've gotten more response out of the resumes ive put out in cincy then ive gotten total in charleston and i've only been trying for a couple days. So I say, what the heck....what have I got to lose? I'm young. I need to experience somewhere other then here.
    Okay. So. Steven & I broke up. We just decided it wasnt going to work anymore, mainly because he got caught up in the college life and i was over fighting. No more needs to be said.
    Terri & I randomly started hanging out again when I went to the Blue Parrot with Lindsay Fletcher one night and we've been best friends ever since. She and I get a long at all times....even when we dont get along. She always knows what to say to put a smile on my face and vice versa. She's just a genuine person and thats refreshing to find these days.
    And as for Jeremy Dunlap...well, also random story. One word.....myspace. Jeremy had been gone "away" for a while and hadnt really heard form him since high school. Well one day I happened upon his myspace page and messaged him because id noticed that he was home. To make a long story short, we met up one evening and have pretty much been together ever since. Im hoping that everything works out. This is a good one I can tell.  It's natural. It's weird but we're a lot alike....which i guess makes it easier for us to understand each other, but at the same token it makes us butt heads a lot. But we'll see.....
   I'm just trying to live life right now...figure out where i'm supposed to be and who i'm supposed to be. It's kind of a bittersweet time in life right now. Im glad to be out of my teenage years but now im ready to slow down and enjoy the ride of this life. It's too short to be unhappy.....this past 2 years has taught me that. Its time to do things for me now. No one else, because no one else has to live my life but me.


<3 CB

10:46am: Spring 2006
My last semester in college...((woah))

Monday
4-5:15 Retailing
5:30-6:45 Senior Seminar
7-9:45 Marketing Communications

Tuesday
7-9:45 Marketing Management

Wednesday
4-5:15 Retailing
5:30-6:45 Senior Seminar

2:31pm: Take the quiz: "Which Laguna Beach Character are You?"

LC
You are LC, very fashionable, rich, and GORGEOUS. You are bitchy but in a silent way. Who cares though with looks like that!?

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age
Stripper Name:	Muffy
Specialty:	the spread-eagle
Customers say:	"Want fries with yer shake?"
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11:39pm: bored.

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You have a passion for everything - including sleeping. Outgoing and brash, you tend to still shock those who know you well. You tend to be selfish. You are the most likely type to hog the covers. You gravitate toward comfort and don't like extreme situations.

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

Your Monster Profile

Cursed Lunatic You Feast On: Pickles You Lurk Around In: The Hearts of Men You Especially Like to Torment: Boys Who Wear Make-up

11:07pm:

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Carrie LeeAnn
Birthday:	Sept. 5, 1984
Birthplace:	Charleston, WV
Current Location:	Belle, WV
Eye Color:	Hazel
Hair Color:	umm...blonde ((brown naturally, i think))
Height:	5'9"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right handed
Your Heritage:	who really knows? im a mutt
The Shoes You Wore Today:	black knee-high boots
Your Weakness:	a good sale...
Your Fears:	the dark....seriously...
Your Perfect Pizza:	pepperoni & lotsa cheese
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	pass this finance class
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	LoL
Thoughts First Waking Up:	what's for breakfast?!
Your Best Physical Feature:	my eyes, i suppose
Your Bedtime:	all the time ((i love sleep))
Your Most Missed Memory:	the innocence of childhood
Pepsi or Coke:	Pepsi ((no doubt))
MacDonalds or Burger King:	chicken nuggets @ McD's MmmmMm
Single or Group Dates:	single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	not a big fan
Chocolate or Vanilla:	yuck! chocolate....definitely vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:	cappuccino
Do you Smoke:	uh huh
Do you Swear:	not on purpose
Do you Sing:	love to
Do you Shower Daily:	uh....yeah!
Have you Been in Love:	currently
Do you want to go to College:	im in college.....not for long, hopefully
Do you want to get Married:	yes ((5 years, right?))
Do you belive in yourself:	not as much as i should
Do you get Motion Sickness:	sometimes
Do you think you are Attractive:	somewhat
Are you a Health Freak:	haha....have u seen me?
Do you get along with your Parents:	increasingly, yes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	not particularly...i just like the rain
Do you play an Instrument:	nope, musically challenged
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	i believe so....
In the past month have you Smoked:	smoked what?
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	negative
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yes, of course
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	DUH!
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	not a WHOLE box....maybe not even one oreo
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	never have eaten the stuff
In the past month have you been on Stage:	nope
In the past month have you been Dumped:	every once in a while :)
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	if i did, not on purpose
Ever been Drunk:	yes
Ever been called a Tease:	lol
Ever been Beaten up:	no...im hard ;)
Ever Shoplifted:	i was an accessory to the crime
How do you want to Die:	in my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	who knows?!
What country would you most like to Visit:	Spain
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	Green
Favourite Hair Color:	Brown
Short or Long Hair:	short
Height:	taller than me ((although i do make exceptions))
Weight:	a little meat on the bones
Best Clothing Style:	comfortable
Number of Drugs I have taken:	enough to know u dont want to make it a habit
Number of CDs I own:	who cares?
Number of Piercings:	restricted to ears
Number of Tattoos:	one at the most...
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	zero
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

6:57pm:

Your Birthdate: September 5

With a birthday on the 5th of the month you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them. You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas. You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel. You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable. Your mind is quick, clever and analytical. A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine. You may have a tendency to shirk responsibility

10:02pm: !!!!!MY BIRTHDAY WAS WONDERFUL!!!!!

well.....steven took me to the mall and bought me some stuff....then we went back to his house and there was dinner waiting for me....then we went up to his neighbors (good friend of our families from church) and they had me a suprise party!!!!


THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER.....

I LOVE YOU STEVEN RANSBOTTOM!!!!!!

7:38am: IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

11:35am: Labor Day's-a-comin :)
Brad Paisley "Alcohol"

I can make anybody pretty
I can make you believe any lie
I can make you pick a fight
with somebody twice
your size. . .

Well I've been known to cause a few breakups
and I've been known to cause a few births
I can make you new friends
Or get you fired from work.

(Chorus)
And since the day I left Milwaukee,
Lynchburg, Bordeaux, France
Been makin the bars
Lots of big money
and helpin white people dance
I got you in trouble in high school
but college now that was a ball
you had some of the best times
you'll never remember with me
Alcohol, Alcohol

I got blamed at your wedding reception
for your best man's embarasing speech
and also for those naked pictures of you at the beach
I've influenced kings and world leaders
I helped Hemingway write like he did
and I`ll bet you a drink or two that I can make you
put that lampshade on your head . .

And since the day I left Milwaukee,
Lynchburg, Bordeaux, France
Been makin a fool out of folks
just like you
and helpin white people dance
I am medicine and I am poison
I can help you up or make you fall
you had some of the best times
you'll never remember with me
Alcohol

And since the day I left Milwaukee,
Lynchburg, Bordeaux, France
Been makin the bars
Lots of big money
(crowd:) and helpin white people dance
Well,I got you in trouble in high school
but college now that was a ball
you had some of the best times
you'll never remember with me
Alcohol, Alcohol

11:03am: My Chemical Romance "Helena"
Long ago
Just like the hearse, you died to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on, just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what’s the worst TO take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like a blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight


[chorus]
What’s the worst that I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight


Came a time
When every stars fall
Brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what’s the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like a blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight

[chorus]
What’s the worst thing I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Can you hear me
Are you near me
Can we pretend
To leave and then
We’ll meet again, when both our cars collide

[chorus]
What’s the worst thing I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

well, if you carry out this way
things are better if i stay
so long and goodnight
so long and goodnight

1:03pm: Well....
I haven't updated lately...school is SO boring. SO much Homework....and having three 3 hour classes is awful...they go on FOREVER ((like i can really pay attention that long))
Been doing homework today...and being lazy of course.
I need to start working out again...i'm just in a rut i guess...


It's our 2 month anniversary :) :) yeah i know thats kinda corny, cuz who celebrates their 2 month anniversary...and we're not celebrating...i'm just happy and wanted everyone to know :)
I've never been so happy....

Found a song i really like...thought i'd share it...
Brad Paisley "She's Everything"

She's a yellow pair of running shoes
A holey pair of jeans
She looks great in cheap sunglasses
She looks great in anything
She's I want a piece of chocolate
Take me to a movie
She's I can't find a thing to wear
Now and then she's moody

She's a Saturn with a sunroof
With her brown hair a-blowing
She's a soft place to land
And a good feeling knowing
She's a warm conversation
That I wouldn't miss for nothing
She's a fighter when she's mad
And she's a lover when she's loving

[Chorus]
And she's everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
I talk about her, I go on and on and on
'Cause she's everything to me

She's a Saturday out on the town
And a church girl on Sunday
She's a cross around her neck
And a cuss word 'cause its Monday
She's a bubble bath and candles
Baby come and kiss me
She's a one glass of wine
And she's feeling kinda tipsy

She's the giver I wish I could be
And the stealer of the covers
She's a picture in my wallet
Of my unborn children's mother
She's the hand that I'm holding
When I'm on my knees and praying
She's the answer to my prayer
And she's the song that I'm playing

[Repeat chorus]

She's the voice I love to hear
Someday when I'm ninety
She's that wooden rocking chair
I want rocking right beside me
Everyday that passes
I only love her more
Yeah, she's the one
That I'd lay down my own life for

And she's everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
She's everything to me
Yeah she's everything to me

Everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
She's everything to me


:) Steven, you're MY everything :) I love you!!!

7:25pm: "She's Got A Way" -Billy Joel
She's got a way about her
I don't know what it is
But I know that I can't live without her

She's got a way of pleasin'
I don't know what it is
But there doesn't have to be a reason
Anyway

She's got a smile that heals me
I don't know why it is
But I have to laugh when she reveals me

She's got a way of talkin'
I don't know what it is
But it lifts me up when we are walkin'
Anywhere

She comes to me when I'm feelin' down
Inspires me without a sound
She touches me and I get turned around

She's got a way of showin'
How I make her feel
And I find the strength to keep on goin'

She's got a light around her
And everywhere she goes
A million dreams of love surround her
Everywhere

She comes to me when I'm feelin' down
Inspires me without a sound
She touches me and I get turned around

She's got a smile that heals me
I don't know why it is
But I have to laugh when she reveals me

She's got a way about her
I don't know what it is
But I know that I can't live without her
Anyway

9:56pm: Havent updated in a while....not much to say I guess
Started classes...pretty much hate them all....so boring and long. I have 3 classes that are 3 hours long. WTF?!
And they're all like the business core classes or marketing concentration classes so they're SO boring.
But what can I expect. I had sales management for the first time tonight...not too bad...the teacher is real cool...he works at BB&T as a financial analyst/ sales for a living and then teaches that class at night. he's real down to earth and seems like he'll try to make the class fun ((one of the three 3-hour classes))
its going to be a rough semester...especially when steven starts school....that will be a real test on our relationship ((but we'll work through it)) i have faith.
there have been many stressful things that we have gone through in the short amount of time that we have been together ((and even be4)) and we always seem to make it through it. I love him SO much.

Well im going to go walk the track w/ dizzle ((she needs to talk...goodness)) and then go see steven for a little bit tonight...
First big game is tomorrow...i need to find a ride ((any volunteers?!?))
Night. Update later.

9:46pm:

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9:57am:
You're Brigitte Bardot!


What Classic Pin-Up Are You?
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September,
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and
organized. Likes to point out people's
mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet
but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and
sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but
not always honest. Does work well. Very
confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good
memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look
for information. Must control oneself when
criticizing. Able to motivate oneself.
Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive.
Loves sports, leisureand traveling. Hardly
shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings.
Very choosy, especially in relationships.
Systematic.


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8:34pm: So the word to describe today was HOT. Not good hot either...HOT HOT.
I bet it was like 97 degrees outside and we had a church picnic at Poca River DuPont Hunting & Fishing Club and they get the bright idea for everyone to be 'physical' today. Im talkin Wiffle Ball/Volleyball/Basketball Tourneys ((Hah! yeah right!)) I sat out the wiffle ball games and video taped ((i took my video camera cuz steven couldnt be there)) so most of the time i was glued to it. all of the funny stuff happened when i wasnt recording ((naturally)) But he'll get the idea of what went on.
I got my feelings hurt at the picnic though, cuz this girl ((who shall remain nameless)) told me that my hair looked funny b/c it was so blonde & my eyebrows arent ((dont hate...HATERS!!)) im learning to like my hair...oh, i got it dyed yesterday ((woah))
But im over that now.
I was very lonely though...steven had a football scrimmage in North Marion..yuck! its too hot for football. He got hurt :(
I want him to come home ((hes on his way)) :) :) :)

Yesterday:
Steven's birthday plans went without any MAJOR drama...a little here & there, but all went well.
I sent him on a scavenger hunt to find clues at places that mean a lot to him & me...which led him to me at Texas Steakhouse...and i was looking ravishing ((if i do say so myself ;) ))
Then we went back to dizzle's where there was a cake waiting for him that i had made earlier that day.
Im so glad I got to suprise him! It was soooo worth it....and i think he enjoyed it ;) I also gave him his present ((which he already knew about))
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So now, im just sitting here patiently waiting for him to get home...i have been deprived all day long and i cant handle it :)
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Im singing tomorrow at church ((come by))

<3 I LOVE YOU STEVEN RANSBOTTOM <3

11:23pm: Well, i dont really have anything much to update about.
Back in Belle and the same ol' thing happens all the time...no need to be repetitive.
My baby is going to start in football and im sooo proud of him. i know how much it means to him and it makes me excited to see him so passionate about something.
i cant even explain to you how lucky i feel to finally have someone in my life that i can connect with in the way i do with him, on a mental and emotional level. he really understands me and loves me for me ((im SO lucky)) and i know he will never know just how much i love him...but thats okay...i have the rest of my life to try to show him.
despite myself and even though i do stupid things ((real stupid)) he still loves me, and im so grateful for that.
i havent been this genuinely happy in, well, maybe ever.
brittany and i were talking about our relationships on the way to the beach and i summed it up by saying that this relationship ((with steven)) is so different because i dont have to pretend it to be something its not....its really that good, and i guess im not used to that, but i think im learning.

enough with my rambling. im getting sleepy.

by the way...i got my grade in my summer accounting 2 class....I GOT AN 'A' ((niiiice))

i love you steven ((more than you'll ever know))

1:46pm: Well completely recoop'ed from the beach trip. It was, um, eventful to say the least.
I dont really know what to say about it.
BJ, Justin, Dustin, Arpan & his girlfriend came down about thursday at like 3 a.m.....then the week took a crazZzy turn ((we'll just leave it at that))

Well, in kind of a rush....got to clean, unpack, go to the doctor & get my film developed ((oh boy))
Update later <3


I LOVE YOU STEVEN!!!!!!!

10:29pm: well i have been neglecting my livejournal as of late....but i've been rather busy getting stuff ready for this beach trip....im SOOOOO excited, i hope all goes well :)

I dont really have much to say right now except for i need to go to sleep cuz im getting up at 4 am....goodness...

Steven:
i'll miss you terribly & be thinking about u the whole time. you have nothing to worry about. i love you with all that i am and would never do anything to compromise what we have. so have fun & be good while i'm gone :) ill call u everyday....i love you.


<3
Carrie

4:25pm:

Your Birthdate: September 5

With a birthday on the 5th of the month you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them. You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas. You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel. You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable. Your mind is quick, clever and analytical. A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine. You may have a tendency to shirk responsibility

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

4:19pm:

You Know You're Addicted to Smoking When...

You put scotch tape on a broken one. You only smoke half of the cigarette so you can start on the next one sooner. A big white truck with the picture of a camel rolls up to your house twice a week with your supply of smokes. You are considering changing your name to Malboro. You smoke in the shower. You've convinced yourself that second-hand smoke is not harmful if you inhale really really deeply. Your children are named: Winston, Philip Morris and Misty. R.J. Reynolds sends you a Christmas card. You're waiting for the last few pews to become a designated smoking area before you'll go back to church. People invite you outside to admire the stars, and it's daytime. Every time you light up a cigarette your family stops, drops and rolls. Your family's Christmas wish list consists of gas masks, fire extinguishers and air fresheners. You have an environmental awareness group protesting on your lawn. Your family goes to Los Angeles for fresh air. Your friends have named their secondhand smoke related coughs after me. Your cat has taken to wearing "The Patch" Your family uses fog horns to navigate around you. Just watching the 400 metre race during the Olympics makes you tired. The local iron lung dealer sends you their product brochures. Phillip Morris sends you their annual report and thanks you for your help. You recently read somewhere that your former cigarette manufacturer went out of business shortly after you switched to a new brand. Your doctor [excitedly] asks for your permission to use your lung x-rays at his next "Quit Smoking" seminar. You take baths because the shower puts 'em out Your nickname at work is "Breakroom." You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are addicted to Smoking.

4:17pm: im really bored, so i'm going to take a couple quizzes...

You are

9:30am:

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

10:04pm: okay....so the final was horrible. I MEAN AWFUL. its like i just blanked.
but oh well...i'll settle for a "B".
still stressed ((about other things)) i wish i could just be stress-free...for once.
babalis stiffed me for some of my pay ((not on purpose)) but i was pissed...he'll give me whatever he owes me...
did get to spend time with my baby :) he bought me some mcdonald's and we sat in the parking lot at riverside so i could chow down....he's so good to me. i love him more and more everyday.

im watching 20/20 now...not as interesting as i hoped. bummer. i could still be with my baby :(
well lets think happy thoughts :)


<3
Carrie

10:12am: RANT FOR THE DAY**
I mean, what are the point in doctors? So something is wrong...but i can't get an appt. until Sept.1 ((WTF)) What good is an appt. a month away??! It'll either be gone or too late by then...
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So, lately steven and i have been arguing a lot...cant really figure out why, maybe all the stress we've been going through ((i hope it stops))
And i had a breakthrough last night and realized that i am way too critical of people ((and myself)) most times..its hard to realize something about yourself that you hate so much. i'll just have to pray about it and make effort to stop myself b/c im sick of hurting the feelings of the people i care about. i hate that about myself...but im working on it.

Anyways...
Today's plans:
*paycheck
*withdrawl $$ for the room @ the beach
*study most of the day
*final @ 6pm
DONE WITH ACCOUNTING 2!!! ((yay))

Love later,
Carrie

<3 u steven